.::a huge day of my cousin::.

as usual..i'll be a 'pengapit' if there is a wedding ceremony in my family..

really tired more than those 'pengantins' I guess..


as I am being a 'pengapit', I am being offered to eat a slice of tis cake (Ya la pengantin mkn so, pengapit pun kna mkn juga..hik2 =p)

.::home In-making::.

msa bcuti nih byk memory yg sempat dirakam including tgk c along bt keja..
rajin ooo..

the words and thoughts of today.

"it's better to remain silence if o know ur words would hurt the others"

ya it's true guys.. in this morning, i learn on the new thing again~concerning on the attitude of the selfish ppl. there are so many type of these ppl who never know on how to appreciate what we've given. they also never know on how to understand us; the feeling of painful, rejection and all the bad feelings..

sigh2..

LETTING GO...

There is a point in ur life when u get tired or trying to fix everything or trying to make everyone happy.

When u finally decide to quit, it's not giving up. It's realizing that u don't need certain people and the disasters they bring to your life. =p

Please..Please..Please..

"please go away and please don't come back"

layan..

Gantung
by Melly Goeslaw

Ku harus menemui cintaku
Mencari tahu hubungan kita
Apa masih atau tlah berakhir

Chorus:
Kau menggantungkan hubungan ini
Kau diamkan aku tanpa sebab
Maunya apa ku harus bagaimana
Kasih�
Sampai kapan kau gantung
Cerita cintaku memberi harapan
Hingga mungkin ku tak sanggup lagi
Dan meninggalkan dirimu

Detik-detik waktu pun terbuang
Teganya kau menggantung cintaku
Bicaralah biar semua pasti

Chorus

Tentunya hubungan cinta denganmu
Membuat ku sakit
Hingga mungkin ku tak sanggup lagi
Dan meninggalkan dirimu


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class & SLTP's result..

kejap lg ada kelas for Indivdual Appraisal..~i still hve the time for my luvly blog pge..hihi

keja sgt byk..but none of them done..bila mo siap?at the end of sem kli..~mmg la for sure..ish2

got too nervous for these past few days mengenangkan result SLTP yg juz around the corner~next week:12 october 2009/monday.
::x mghrap sgt sbb yg g interview around 100> and MOHE only wants 32 students fr each university.

::Pray to Allah S.W.T:may everything will be easiest for me!~insyaAllah

clicked!~

shut down
xxx

hari raya

yesterday, i ate a lot u know..

these are the list of house that we went for Hari raya (didn't get angpaw pun~hihi)

1. ct's house~Kajang
2. Dr. Johdi's house~Rawang
3. Dr. Nik's house~Damansara
4. Dr. Mohyani's house~Greenwood, Gombak.

p/s:tq 4 the delicious food. (^_^)

sabah.sabah.sabah.

really miss this place..
every moments there..

stuck!

blackout
XXX

redha.

salam.
there will be a lot of unexpected things come to us soon..
~it can be happy as well as sad..

nothing to be regretted as i tried my best.

.homesick.

salam.
just come bck from Sabah.
this is my first blog after the long silence due to Hri Raya.

hmm..As usuall..leaving my hometown means I have to leave everything at Sabah.~the 'Ketupat', my mom's mushroom soup,my notty niece n nephew,blah2..
then, u know why I'm not really happy to go back to KL altough UIA is giving the warm welcoming for me.

Really, I'm so happy to spend my 'Hari Raya' with my family n friends at Sabah...dont know why..may be sometimes I feel really 'alone' at UIA during Ramadhan.
It's really painful to get into flight and give the last 'bubye' to them during at KK Airport.

It is true that M.K.R is here, but his presence doesnt really change anything. he got too busy with her career for these past few months...Maybe after this 'Hari Raya' he could manage everything to be more ok..
Stop talking about him.~he knows on how to reasoning when I'm start to tease him.~hihi

owh, my family is not really let me going bck alone to UIA actually..
each members of my family give me the advices,experiences that really precious..
ya..really love them..muaahh! C=

insomnia

salam.
~cannot sleep and cannot do anything.hmm..
sitting in front of my laptop and as usual i'll visit my blog first~the voice of my heart.

~why i still do not get tired even the clock shows i'm in the middle of nite?got too many assignment,blah blah i guess.nah, both of my eyes is like the eyes of panda recently due to this unhealthy lifestyle.kih kih..~so what?!

~this is wat we called as 'sacrification' where life is about the individual bussiness.by that way, for sure anything we plan and gonna implement is nothing to do with the other people who r not relate to us!~it sounds selfish but it's not!
so, just go on and let the other people in their own world altough sometimes it would hurt us!~bcoz they don't cre of us.

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putrajaya...stadium bukit jalil..

i really want to go to these both of places today...
hmm... it's ok then. next year I'll manage to go insyaAllah.

p/s; somebody forgot about this! =C

.in a day where we must be more tougher.~31 aug

salam.

as usual, wake up in the early of morning and start the routine of life.~nothing change since it's constantly fixed.

but today~everything gradually change..hurm..where i should start this sort of fairy tale i guess..
-seems better since these past few days..on how i view the life, the world as the whole..

-open the eyes and keep it on the 'ISLAM,KNOWLEDGE and CIVILIZATION' book, owh, how meaningful the life and how grateful to be given the opportunity to be a student.

-life will be good if we really take care of the need of ourselves first. it doesn't mean we have to be selfish but it's life where normally, the other ppl wouldn't care of others if they have something more important to do.~wah..what's the life.

-we'll get what we gave! but sometimes, that words do not really work. it is because; sometimes, there is the person who really greedy to give it back although we give it excessively. ~GeT ME?

-whatever it is; this is life where sometimes we have to step on the rainy street~and for sure sometimes we can be unstable to stand on it. there is no guarantee for everything in life!~that is why, for anything we have, hold it tightly and be grateful for that without questioning it!

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.new hope.

salam.
~New words for the new hope on this Ramadhan~the month full of 'Rahmat'.

~Getting new spirit where the soul becomes more enthusiastic to live the life of tomorrow.

~Leaving all the falling stories and all the rubbish things behind would make me alive with the crazy friends n happy family n the most important life~the life in IIUM.

~i'm almost to enter the day of freedom~independence day.
Just let anything free and welcoming the bestiest things to come!

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The Voice of my Heart..: this guy!#comments#comments#comments

fasting day..

salam.
today is the fourth day of the month of Ramadhan..

my class today is begin at 8.30 in the morning until 1 p.m..
a bit tired becoz i do not take any food during 'sahur'..( i do not wke up actually.hihi)

a lot of assignments to be done where i have to submit ol of them b4 going bck to Sabah at the early of September.

really miss Sabah becoz of its 'ayam panggang madu' at Beaufort Bazar Ramadhan.
~there is no place that can beat it tastes...

it's like a sort of fairy tale when i will go bck to Sabah for juz around 2 weeks.~and the sadness part is when i'm going to tell ol of u tht i still do not prepare anything for Hari Raya. Even for a 'bju Rya' I still do not have.
Was too busy since these past few days.. what to do.. I prefer to buy the ready made 'bju rya' since I have no choice for that...

Friends, see u on Hari Raya and I'll introduce somebody special on that day..InsyaAllah..

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console table...

lala...

this guy!

He loves the nature including this turtle!


hm..tafsir la sendiri...

somemore on wat I luv..

ish..mmg ada yg xbalik la juga ni krg..

I luv tis..

I luv the concept of 'Inggeris Kedesaan'.

This bed sheet is really suits with my interest..



nah, xblh tdo mlm sbb teringat ja..


tq2 for tis pink room C=



the concept of modern contemporary..nice reading room!


cuba tgk lampu 2..cantik kn? C=

I leave all the way have you...

~~~~~~

I really miss THEM!

salam..

I miss:

-Mummy

-tati

-kak ijan

-lala (jiela)

-mama~may ALLAH S.W.T bless u!

-Danish Haiqal~nanish

-MHS

-MS

-SABAH~where the heart is..

::my home at Borneo Samudera

::my hometown KG. Kerukan, KP

::coming soon..At jln Lintas (",)

why?why?why?

::just let anything flow..

::ada hikmahnya..

::someday he'll regret..

::someone better is waitG actually!

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the task to be done.

~UNGS. Reflection on the classification of knowledge according to Imam Ghazzali.
~SWFCS. Article review on Social Work.
~IME. Article review on Moral Philosophy+ Islamic-find two articles.
~EAP. Does student performance affected by parental divorce?-Present it.

Get busy and get fun! C=
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should we change after jumping to the better position?

Salam.

This is the new release of my words after the long silence.
Sitting in front of my laptop~doing nothing..hmm..
Got chickenpox last week with the scars everywhere on my body now..I can’t tell u how suffer I am..

Anyway, just to share my feeling right now.. :s
I hate him..
The way he treats me..~so ‘skema’ with a lot of protocol u know..shit..
Do we have to change a lot including in treatG the people who know u very well after jumpG to the better position?
(I got nausea..uweekk)~sgt ‘eksyen’..
No need to do that man!!!

You just make people around u getting ‘menyampah’ +’meluat’ on u…
This is the good experience where it helps me to understand people better ~ who got the good career and changed a lot just to show the power or the standard I guess…(actually it’s not really good pun..)

Be calm and cool Nell..~many people mean many attitudes and don’t be like him once u get the excellence position in the middle of society…

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:chickenpox:

getting better.
scars are everywhere on my body..huhu
wateverla..the most important is..raya ni aku msti melatooop..
hihi..
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.You are not alone.

"You Are Not Alone"

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

:Terasing:

Salam..
Recently, I heard to this song..So touching u know..

Sudirman
Terasing
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Kegelisahan didalam kedinginan
Meniti sepi keseorangan
Sebuah kematian yang tiada bernisan
Sendu mengiringi perpisahan

Ruang nan luas diri bergerak bebas
Namun keupayaanku terbatas
Segala mimpi menjadi asing
Perit membakar diri

Sebuah cinta dan harapan
Menjadi mimpi berterbangan
Tersekat nafasku kabur pandangan mataku
Amat tersiksa diriku
Kerana kehilanganmu

Oh mengapakah terus mengharap menanti
Walau cukup kusedari
Kau tak kan kembali

Pemergianmu mengisi kekosongan
Biarpun dikau masih kuperlukan
Kita dikatakan pasangan bahagia
Kini terasing luka

WHAT I got on my Bestday?

Salam..
hello guys out there, this is my 1st blog while taking the fresh breathe of holiday in Sabah.

hihi..I swap the word 'Bestday' from birthday just to show how grateful I am to be given the opportunity to become the 'Sweet 22' on last 6 June.

no need to talk more.I just want to share the gifts that i got on that day C=


*Fr. Mummy.Mummy, may I ask anything else? =p



*Nice gown from my baby..C=



*The cute hp holder fr Dillah



*Fr Raff.I used it every day as I can’t found mine during the short sem..hihi



*I also bought something on my birthday; a pair of shoes and…



…gown..why in black?~the sign of maturity.hehe


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GOOD LUCK!

.::. Strive for the best (Allah will always b with u)

.::. I'ALLAH everything will be GOOD!

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"Sesungguhnya, ALLAH memang sengaja...

Memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita

dengan orang yang salah supaya kita dapat

menjadi penilai yang baik.

Memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita

dengan orang yang salah supaya kita sedar

bahawa kita hanyalah makhluk yang sentiasa

mengharapkan pertolongan ALLAH.

Memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita
dengan orang yang salah supaya kita dapat
KASIH SAYANG TERBAIK, KHAS UNTUK
DIRI KITA.

Memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita
dengan orang salah supaya kita sedar
bahawa ALLAH MAHA PEMURAH DAN PENYAYANG
kerana mengingatkan kita bahawa dia
bukanlah pilihan yang hebat untuk kita
dan kehiduapan kita pada masa depan...

Memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita
dengan orang yang salah supaya kita dapat
mengutip pengalaman yang tak semua orang
berpeluang untuk mengalaminya.

Memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita
dengan orang yang slah supaya kita jadi
MANUSIA yang HEBAT JIWANYA.

Memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita
dengan orang yang salah supaya kita lebih
faham bahawa CINTA yang TERBAIK HANYA ADA
BERSAMA ALLAH.

Memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita
dengan orang yang salah supaya kita lebih
faham bahawa CINTA yang TERBAIK HANYA ADA
BERSAMA ALLAH.

Memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita
dengan orabg yang slah supaya kita LEBIH
MENGENALI KEHIDUPAN yang TAK SELAMANYA KEKAL.

Wahai sahabat yang kecewa, menderita dan
sengsara kerana cinta, fahamilah bahawa
kehidupan kita makin sampai ke
penghujungnya. Hari esokpun kita
sendiri tak pasti sama ada menjadi milik
kia. Gapailah keredhaan ALLAH dengan
melaksanakan suruhan-NYA dan meninggalkan larangan NYA.

PERCAYALAH sesungguhnya ALLAH malu
untuk menolak permintaan hamba-NYA yang
menadah tangan meminta dengan penuh
pengarapan HANYA kepada-NYA..

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the result after working hard for three days..

"it's not easy in order to satisfy or to fulfil the need of othrs u know.."

as the ex-RA of Dr haniza noticed tht i'm interested in sewing the beads, she asked me to sew her 'bju pengantin'(kelam kbut juga aku bg siap)~kain tu t'lalu lmbut likes the tissue..hmm

skit2 badan pun ada...pnat aku mgalahkn bakal pengantin tu sendiri hihi.. tp puas hati la juga even i have to modify it for several time..so that it looks more nice and smart.

nah,u can see it.. C=

*it has three layers where each of it took around 1 hour to complete it~(all 2gether are 6 layers) so,can u count how many hours that i spent only for both of the hands?

*At the bottom

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my schedule on this short semester

i'm too relax on tis short sem..hihi (",)

Dan sebenarnya..

oh bulan

jangan layan diriku lagi

pabila,

air mata membasahi pipi

dan lagu2 di radio seolah2 memerli aku

pabila,

kau bersama yg lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta

yang masih bersemadi untukmu

dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan

di sebalik senyuman mu itu

kau juga merindui aku

ku enggan

berpura pura ku bahagia

ku enggan

melihat kau bersama si dia

oh ku akui cemburu

telah menular dalam diri

pabilakau bersama yang lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta

yang masih bersemadi untukmu

dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan

di sebalik senyuman mu itukau juga merindui aku

pabila kau merenung matanyaku rebah,

jatuh ke bumi

di saat kau benar-benar mahu pergi

seperti ku bernafas dalam air

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta

yang masih bersemadi untukmu

dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan

di sebalik senyuman mu itu kau juga merindui aku

oh

::homesick::

salam..
the school holiday started on last two days (if i'm not mistaken)..
all of my cousins going bck to my hometown..(Kuala penyu)
hmmm..when i'm at iium they are are gathering there and when i'm going bck to KP nobody there pula.. (mmg btl2 tda rezeki mo jumpa dorg)
staying away far from my family is really challenging for me..
sabar ja la..
# i hve two yrs more to go!

frustrated+sakit hti..

i don't know wht happen to the ppl around me skrg ni..~mcm bingung2 bkin skit hti ja..
ntahla..mkin d lyn mkin mnjdi perangai mengada2..
but,the gud thing is,i still cn fce and listen to the problem of others.~congrats ya nelly..hihi
hmm..become too kind to the other ppl is not gud actually (interms of psychologically)..when i'm silent, that 'org' says me is trying to avoid myslf from him and 4get him..when i'm start talking,asking evrything (jz to show how much i care), 'org' 2 rimas la kunun..pura2 pnat n tdur..hmm ntahla..may b i'm not gud enough in undersatnding the feeling of other although i ever try mybst..

::see u all guys on the next 'words' muahh.. (",)

.::part time job::.

salam.. alu..

tired.. dizzy.. ...

those words really reflect myslf now..
as i'm doing short semester for sem III, I make decision to become the 'CC Part Timer'..~kuikui
I never work before so, this is my first experience in "acquiring $"..

nah, every cents that I get make me realize that it's not easy to get the $.~it sounds very 'kesian'..(but, it doesn't stop my interest~shopping!)

Indirectly, this situation make me 'insaf' and struggle for the better life, later on.. I hold the solemnization in my heart :"nelly, u hve to get Dean's List for every semester and just sell it (I mean the good result) to any sponsorship. Thus, no need for u to work and u can enjoy ur real life as the student..

Hmm..whateverla..anyway, my ultimate purpose of working actually is to fulfill my 'freetime', meeting the new types of people (ngam la tu as a conselor kn..) and the last thing getting the $..(kunun, my mummy still bnk in the $ for every months.~I will die if she knows i'm working)

bah, that's all C=

.Mother's Day.

As a child you walked before me,

To lead by example.

As a teenager you walked behind meLooking out for my back and being there when I needed you.

As an adult you walk beside me So that, as two friends, we can enjoy life together..
Happy Mothers' Day, Mom
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#i'm nothing without u..

.Next destination.

after that, we're going to this place..but I forgot its name..hihi

That place made me remember on my childhood memory..I found this! I really want to have this small house on the tree..(jajal nih)

Then, I went to the beach..nice scenery

The last destination was: UK..WE TOOK a lot of pictures infront of mirrors..(mcm tda keja)

.SHOrt holiday.

Last semester break, my sister n me decided to 'run away' fr the our world for a while to Labuan Island..We visited several places n found out that place was so interesting..

The first place that we went was:

Labuan War Cemetery

The Labuan War Cemetery is a memorial for the fallen Australian, British, New Zealand, Punjab and local soldiers during the war. Many prisoners-of-war were forced by the Japanese to march to Ranau after being captured in Sandakan, in what is now known as the Ranau Death March. Hundreds died along the way and most were buried in Labuan. The memorial center serves as a place to remember their valiant sacrifices and as an effort to mark it, a Remembrance Day is held on the first Sunday of November each year.

Salam.this is my next blog.the voice of my heart will be posted here!